Progress on the Home Front
I don’t like using this page to share my medical progress. Still, I continue to hear from people who are reticent to get in touch with me for fear that I don’t have the strength or time to handle their communication or that they want to give Sara and me the privacy to navigate this without intrusion. While we appreciate the generosity of spirit behind those concerns, we want you to know it is now unnecessary.
Sara and I talked on our walk this morning about the first few weeks after having my spine fused and starting chemo. The pain was horrific, and navigating the simplest need took everything we had. We are, however, long past those days. I am nearly as fit today as I was before all this began. I do have a fused spine now, and the first few months of recovering from that were rigorous and painful. I have mostly recovered from that surgery, and only have some limitations as well as minor, annoying pain persisting. I also have multiple myeloma, a form of blood cancer, that is currently being contained by the chemotherapy I have been receiving. My treatments started weekly for four months, then went to bi-weekly. Last Wednesday was the last of those treatments, and now I am on a once-a-month maintenance dose. I have been fortunate; I have not had any significant side effects limiting my activity.
The Physician’s Assistant overseeing my care told me last week, “We wish all of our myeloma patients would respond like your body has. Your numbers are so low that if I did a bone biopsy today, I wouldn’t find any evidence of cancer. It is still there, but in numbers so low it would be undetectable.” Without healing from Jesus, it is likely to relapse someday, but every breath I take is in his hands anyway. We are going to make use of the time we’ve been given.
This time of recovery has allowed me to make significant headway on my book, It’s Time: Letters to the Bride of Christ at the End of the Age. I published Part 1 a couple of months ago, and I have three chapters left to write to complete the book. I’ve also been working on a new book with Tobie van der Westhuizen of South Africa about participating in God’s justice rather than being preoccupied with personal righteousness. This is an essential piece of our salvation that has been almost ignored following the Reformation. Theologians have been discussing it, but it hasn’t made headway into popular books or seminars. This has revolutionized in my heart what it means to live loved and how the whole of Scripture points us to this incredible freedom.
So, I have resumed a more normal schedule and don’t want people to be reluctant to contact me if they want to. I have begun some travel again, first a test trip to my son’s home in Denver last weekend. Next month, Sara and I are going to Alaska to celebrate our 50th wedding anniversary. After that, I plan to visit Boise, ID, in late June to meet some people there. I don’t know how much travel I will do in the future, since we are still attending to Sara’s healing from the trauma that devastated her life, and from which she is in the process of healing. She’s doing great, but that will always be our priority when contemplating other trips God might invite us on. I’m also doing a lot of Zoom connections with people I can’t travel to now.
We are grateful for all the prayers and support we have received during the last three years, which have had their share of difficulty and heartache but also redemption beyond anything we could imagine. As Sara and I navigate this season and our ever-darkening world, we are excited about what Jesus might still have in store for us. We are not through walking with him and encouraging others, however he opens the door for us to do so.
Looking back over the past seven months, we are grateful for God’s provision every step of the way and for using this challenging season to draw us closer to him and to each other. Jesus wants to be our constant companion in the darkest of times. Nothing can happen to us that Jesus won’t navigate us through and shape our hearts in the process. I love him for that.