Wayne Jacobsen

I love honesty. As I’ve often said, “The truth will set you free, but it will really mess with you first.” Freedom is risky and discovering that God is loving and kind enough for you to let him into the most broken places of your life can look intimidating at the outset, especially if you’ve been good at hiding your scars and fears beneath fig leaves.

I got this email yesterday. It almost reads like a poem, and while the person writing it may be terrified of what’s to come, I see the beginning steps of a beautiful transformation. Letting him in is the hard part, because once he’s in there you’ll find him more loving, kind, tender and patient as any person you’ve ever known, and what’s more he has the power to heal our wounds and to walk us out of any place we got stuck and into his glory taking root in us.

I love this and can’t wait for the email I hope to get six months from now about what happened in the aftermath of opening so wide a door to him. Good things always begin where we surrender to his love, even if we’re not sure we can quite trust him yet. They will soon know that trust is no better placed than it is in him:

    Your proposition about such a loving God scares the heck out of me.

    I have never known this God, even though I have “known” him 30 years this year.

    It scares me to contemplate this God you speak about. As part of the journey will mean revisiting old wounds and ugly scars that I have covered in layers of fig leaves.

    I shrouded my wounds in religion and my shame wore clothes of assumption. I had to assume God to be a certain way to get past my painful past and my personally devastating history.

    Religion told me I couldn’t ask God questions because He owes no explanation and the theology of an angry God made me look for reasons why I could have deserved all that I had grappled so long with.

    I wept tonight tears that I had sealed in a private bag of pain. Now I must let God into these broken areas so that His love can heal me. This profound love you speak so hauntingly of.

We’ve been taught so many things unworthy of God by our religious traditions. This person is about to find out how amazing God is at dealing with our questions and setting us free. And I’m praying for him or her so that they will come to enjoy the outrageous love of a tender Father.

Here are some more thoughts that have touched us from The Way by E. Stanley Jones. If you want some backgound on this book, please see my earlier blog about it.

I found this especially applicable to some of the thoughts and conversations I’m having about community these days:

People cannot get along with each other because they cannot get along with themselves, and they cannot get along with themselves because they cannot get along with God.

Every relationship we have gets twisted because we have no idea who Father is and how he’s invited us to engage him. Most of our conformity-based attempts at community fail precisely for this reason. Just to manage people we need an endless set of rules and hierarchies to keep order. All the while the real problem goes unaddressed. Until people learn how to live deeply in God, they will undermine their own attempts at community. And trying to manage people who can’t get along with God will lead to repressive, obligation-based environments that provide only an illusion of community if people cooperate on the same task. But each will be trying to get what they want from the others, and when they are disappointed they will default to manipulating them. To guard against that, “leaders” set up rules to curtail the selfishness of others, freeing them to pursue their own.

That’s why I’m convinced that community is the connection God gives between those who are living loved. Because if Jones’ statement above is true, surely it’s corollary is as well: People who get along with God, will be at peace with themselves, and they will get along with others freely. They won’t need relationships to be managed because they’ll live in the glorious order that comes from loving others and preferring them above themselves. Such people will see guidelines and hierarchies as false substitutes for helping people really come to grips with who God is.

That’s why real community is not a goal we can achieve; it’s the fruit of people who are learning to live loved by the Father.

Sara and I recently started reading a new book together. It isn’t easy for us to find books that we both enjoy. We’re incredibly picky because we want something that’s fresh and new to our journey, but also has depth and challenges the way we already think. But a friend of mine recently sent me a copy of a book he edited that was originally written in 1946 by a missionary in India, E. Stanley Jones. It caught my attention because I had run across the name of this author in conversations with some of my older brothers on this journey. It seems Jones was a real encouragement to many of them.

So, Sara and I started reading The Way written by E. Stanley Jones, a missionary back in India during the middle part of the last century. It is a devotional, so it is broken into smaller, daily readings, but Sara and I have been covering two each day and then reflecting for a few moments on what he’s written. In this book he is contrasting the way that Jesus taught us to live with what is not-the-way, that lures us into sin and frustration. We are enjoying it and gleaning some wonderful insights, all the more because it’s written by someone who lived many years before us.

So I’m going to share some occasional excerpts in future blogs because I think you’ll find them helpful, too, and because I find a lot of his insights so fresh and compelling. Like this one about freedom:

              Apparently we are free to choose, but we are not free to choose the results of our choosing.

Let that sink in. What a great statement on freedom! Though God has given us the freedom to make choices, he has not given us the ability to control the consequences of those choices. That’s what many people miss. In the name of freedom in Christ they are still making choices that cause incredible destruction in them and disruption in people around them. Though God designed the creation so we can do pretty much anything we want, we cannot escape the consequences of those choices. Our own independence and selfishness came not only come back to haunt us in ways we’d never imagine, but also can do great damage to the people around us even if that’s not what we intended. True freedom isn’t doing whatever we want; it’s the freedom to choose his way above the moral chaos of this broken world.

To do that we have to abandon the mistaken idea that righteousness is the onerous burden God has placed on us to keep an offended deity at bay. His desire for us to be holy is not to obligate us to do things the way he wants, but to invite us live in harmony with God’s reality in the universe. That’s why Jesus told his disciples that he wanted “his joy to be in them so that they joy might be full.”

Jones continues:

          (Jesus) is not imposing on us a foreign joy, trying to make us happy about something we dislike. He is giving a joy which, when we take it, is our very own… We must get hold of this until it becomes an axiom: My will and God’s will are not adversaries. The idea that God’s will always lies along the lines of the disagreeable is false. The will of God is always our highest interest. It could not be otherwise and God be God. I am fulfilled when I make Him my center. I am frustrated when I make myself the center.

That’s not because God has an ego so large that he has to be the center of everything. It’s just our growing awareness that he actually is the center of everything and true life is found in our coming to love, trust and rest in him.

And we even need his help to do that, because we are so easily swayed to do what we think best. Only when his love working in us is more real to us than what we think we can do by our own efforts, can we taste of the freedom that really is freedom!

After having four uninterrupted months at home with friends and family, it looks like its time to hit the road again, and perhaps the airport. Sara has recovered well from her surgery and though I’m not going whole-hog into an extensive travel schedule, there are some invitations that I felt led to accept and some personal conversations God wanted me to have as part of my journey at the moment.

So in a couple of weeks, I’ll be heading to Edmond, OK and then on to Tulsa. I’ll be doing a number of meetings in Edmond on Friday and Saturday, March 1 and 2. During the afternoons from 1:30 to 4:30 I’ll be at Conversations in Edmond for some open conversations about living loved. In the evenings from 6:30 to 9:00 I’m going to do a brief seminar about “Awakening to the Father’s Work In Your Life” to help people recognize the way God invites them into fuller expressions of his life. Space is limited, so you need to contact Conversations at their website if you’d like to join us there.

And then I’ll be heading up to Tulsa on Sunday morning and we’ll have an open time of conversation in Broken Arrow on Sunday afternoon from 2:30 – 6:30. If you’d like to be part of that you’ll need to contact Shannan.

You can find the necessary information and contact details on my Travel Page.

After that I’ll head to Australia in mid-April for some time Brisbane, Kingaroy, Toowoomba, Melbourne, and Traralgon. Details are on the travel page as well.